The End of 2012!

Let's see... In July

We started potty training the boys. Only Josiah has lasted. 

Not much else happened. We played a lot. 

August

Jo started Cubbies! This is his hair for Crazy Hair Night at Awana

The boys got to ride in my mom's new Mustang! They loved it of course.

We went camping with Aunt Katie and Uncle Michael.
Daddy started the Police Academy right after!

September

The boys got into mommy's make up. Lipstick makes a better eyebrow pencil.

First pony ride @ Harvest Fellowship Church

October. ...Not the best month.

The boys and their first pumpkin!

I convinced my family to all go the pumpkin patch for the boys. 

I'm so glad they all came. It was our last time all together.

That night we took the boys to their first circus! mine too.
 They enjoyed it, but since it was so late, we had to leave early. :(

The next day, we celebrated my niece's 2nd birthday!! Such a pretty girl. 

A few days later, a date I'll never forget, October 23rd 2012, my little brother committed suicide.
Worst day ever. 

November.

My uncle tom passed away.

We decorated for Christmas early

Got my hair cut and colored!

Kaiden got his 1st haircut

Got a tattoo in memory of my brother.

December

I don't have as many pictures yet. They are all still on my camera.

Kaiden got his first bloody lip.

My husband graduated from the Police Academy & got a job in a jail.

 Hopefully he'll be out on the road in a year or so!

two of my sisters-in-law had babies this month. They are so adorable and I love to hold them. :)

Another sister-in-law announced that she is going to be having a baby in August! Two of my friends are due around the same time as well. Babies are so exciting! 

no more for us right now though. ;)

On December 14th there was a terrible shooting in Connecticut. 26 people died. 20 of them were kids. It was a terrible day. I couldn't even imagine their pain. Sending their kids to school like any other day. presents waiting under the tree for kids who will never open them. It's just another reminder to never take life or time for granted. Spend as much time loving as you can.

On the 21st, we survived the end of the world. Again. ;)

We celebrated christmas at my in-laws and my moms. It was actually a good day. It marked the 9 week anniversary of my brother's death. But the day was better than I expected.

My sister wrote this poem I want to share with you and then this post will be finished!

It’s hard to smile on Christmas Eve
At all the presents under the tree.
When your baby face is all I see
Staring right back at me.

Remembering the look on your face
Next to grandpa’s fireplace
Time will never begin to erase
The love and joy shared in that place.

15 Christmases all flew by
The same as the days in your life.
And as I think I start to cry
Goodbye to the joy in your eyes

Holidays will never be the same
Because of the tragedy we became
All of our tears become like rain
Bubby, I’m sorry for all of your pain

I’m sorry for the tears you cried
I’m sorry for all the times I lied
I’m sorry I could never see
Just how much you needed me.

And most of all I’m sorry you’re gone
I’ll remember, Bubby. From now on.